Up and Doing

I watch quietly from the back.
A hub of activity cracks,
Silence is the spoon that breaks.
The souls look on in wait.
Silence permeates their souls
Snuffing out all but the air they breathe
Something disrupts
A voice? A squeak?
Maybe even a shuffling of feet.
No one can tell
But silence, the poor fiend,
Swiftly they descend!
Destroying his hold
Revenge served cold
A madness unfolds!

Battered and bruised,
He comes to me
He sits with me
He speaks to me
Not with chords
For he has none
But with his eyes.
Those eyes!
They speak noises!
Even madness!
I can hear his voices!
Words I cannot express
Silently screaming
He's in pain
I can't stand his pain
So I stab him in the heart!
He bleeds and bleeds
Thick golden blood
Until finally
Silence dies..

I wish you'd understand,
That I don't know what to say.
I dont know how to say.
That I don't know when to say.
We're not what we used to be,
We're not how we used to be.
My smiles to you don't reach my eyes.
I cringe everytime you look at me.
You think I'm being mean.
You don't know what I mean.
I can't face you,
but it's not my fault.
You severed our ties,
I just consented.
I don't argue, I never do.
Not on these topics anyway.
I never know what to say.
I don't expect much from you.
You think it's a problem.
But I've danced that dance before.
I only get exhausted.
It's a downward spiral,
A lonely waltz.
After all this,
You'll ask me
Who sent you?
And once again,
I'll cry myself to sleep.

A new temperation has arisen.
Shall my flesh fall back into this prison?
A distress in my soul,
A thorn in my flesh,
Clinging to my insides.
My mind is mush,
Rendered useless by your smile.
We've always been friends
Why do you seek to change that?
Because of a connection I can't control..
Because my body responds to yours.
My will is weak.
My flesh is weaker.
Don't tempt me.
I fear I can't bear it.
I fear more losing you.
After all is said and done.
I know I will lose you.
So stay my friend,
In the safety of the zone.